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Monday, 28 December 2009

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    Mighty Prevailing Prayer
    By Wesley L. Duewel
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    "The Sin of Sloth" - A New Year's Resolution

    sistine Of the many paintings at the Sistine Chapel in Rome, Michelangelo’s portrayal of Adam and God is probably one of the most well known and easily one of the most magnificent. Sure, you’ve all seen it, but have you looked at it closely? Studied it? Given more than just a passive thought as to what it’s supposed to be representing? I’d like you to take such a look at it with me now, because this particular work of art holds a profound message which happens to be very important to us as people, and more importantly as Christians.

    Look at the figure that represents God. Notice how his body is stretched out and twisted, his muscles are taught, his finger is pointed and his eyes are gazing directly into Adam’s heart and soul. Notice how the painting depicts the sense of urgency that God and all his creation has to connect with mankind. Do you see it? Now take a look at Adam, the representation of mankind. His posture is a little different, isn’t it? He appears laid back. His muscles aren’t taught, the posture of his hand is saying, “Well, I’m not sure I want to lift that finger.” His finger is just kind of laying there, there’s a gap between his hand and God’s, and it almost looks as if Adam, mankind, is waiting for God to do a little bit more to close the gap. And God did. He gave us his son, Jesus Christ. What else could he do? We weren’t being obedient, we weren’t in tune to his love, so he made the greatest demonstration of love possible by sending his own son to die on the cross for us.

    Friends, sometimes I think we live this way. God is rushing at us, passionately pursuing us so that we may come to know him. He wants us to experience his love in compelling ways, and we’re just passively living our lives, saying, “Yea, I’m a Christian.” Even while knowing that he’s given everything including his own son Jesus Christ for us, we ask for more. As we begin this new year in 2009, I’d like to invite you into a life of passion and urgency to know God with the same sense of urgency in which God wanted to know you. The distance between us and God at any given moment is small, and all he asks us to do is respond by receiving through grace his gift of Jesus Christ, and by faith trusting him with our lives.

    The past year has brought terrible tragedies to thousands of people, me included. In this new year, I challenge you to revamp your faith, to persist and prevail in prayer, and to succeed in doing God's mighty will. This is a terrible situation we're in, and it's going to take some miracles to get out of it. Go with God, and be the miracle.

Monday, 02 November 2009

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    Storm the Gates of Hell
    By Demon Hunter
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    I Am Demon Hunter

     Many of you know that Demon Hunter is (to say the least) my favorite band. A long while ago, I started a post entitled "My Favorite Demon Hunter Songs" but never finished or published it. Well, tonight I looked through Demon Hunter's albums on iTunes, and found the iTunes review (by the people at apple) to be quite puzzling. It's supposed to be a description of the CD that will make people buy the album, but for every DH album reviewed there was something more of a negative listener review posted there instead. Obviously the reviewer is not into good music, because s/he basically talked about how mainstream death metal bands are way better, and how hardcore music is supposed to make depressed and/or angry people feel all the worse. They also went so far as to say that Stryper is the "only well-liked Christian metal band." Really? What an idiot! Anyway, I'm going to attempt to select five Demon Hunter songs that I will call my "favorites" (in no particular order, I assure you) and some reasons behind my love for them. Here goes!
     
    1. A Broken Upper Hand (Demon Hunter): This song is a straight forward letter to Satan and how he'll never take control of me, no matter how hard he tries or how close he gets. The bible says that sin starts in the mind, and that Satan tricks us into sinning by introducing thoughts into our minds that make sense to us, but are really justification for sin. The song begins "Trapped behind my state of mind, I took your words and now I'm blind." The more we believe the thoughts and ideas that Satan puts into our heads, the more we put ourselves in his 'state of mind' and the more likely we are to feel less guilt when we sin. My favorite lyric in this song states "I can't pull away my blank stare, a thousand times should prove I don't care. But hands can't steal the light that makes me, or bring me to the fate that breaks me." The pull of sin is embedded within us as human beings, and in our lifetimes we will give into sin countless times, which should prove to God that we don't care, but because of his graceful forgiveness and our faithful dedication to Jesus, no one, not even Satan himself, can take our salvation away from us.
     
    2. Anihilate The Corrupt (Summer of Darkness): This song is rather depressing, but for a good cause. It opens with the words "Behind the eyes of my compassion lies a suffering soul, and in my blood a bitter darkness slowly taking it's toll. I feel the death of our connection and the fading of light between the shards of sudden panic from choking on my life." Wow. This is a clear statement of how every "outwardly Christian" person is. No matter how happy we appear, no matter how in tune with God we profess to be, we all have our own personal issues to deal with. Yes, being a Christian is intensely fulfilling, and knowing that God forgives our every sin does leave us joyfully fullfilled, but as human beings we tend to hold grudges against ourselves. In Matthew it says that it would be hypocritical to ask God to forgive our sins if we hadn't forgiven those who've sinned against us. This includes ourselves. Satan knows us very well, and he uses the guilt caused by our sins against us in a way that keeps us from asking forgiveness (or makes us beg for it when all we have to do is ask) which either keeps us from forgiving ourselves, or makes us think that we cannot be forgiven. The song continues with the prayer "I can't breathe alone. You can guide me home." This is a statement of complete surrender. To me it says, "God, without you I can't so much as breathe. Guide me towards you." Amen?
     
    3. Fire to My Soul (The Triptych): Not only is this one of Demon Hunter's best sounding songs, it also holds a deep meaning. The instrumentals are brutal, rythmic, melodic, and harmonic all at the same time, and the vocals are done in classic DH fashion ranging from hard and heavy to slow and poetic. The song is about how we shut God out of our lives by completely ignoring him and going with the flow of our world-taught instinct instead, only to realize in hindsight of our poor decisions that God was telling us not to go through the door that we're now trapped on the wrong side of. This song is one of my favorites because if I'm listening to it, I'm totally moshing out from start to finish. Awesome.
     
     
    4. One Thousand Apologies (The Triptych): It's the lyrics of this song that make it a favorite of mine. It's almost as if this song was written by me! I'm sure I've posted the lyrics to this one before, but I'm gonna put 'em here for good measure.
     
    There you stood in disbelief, trying all you could to see through these lies.
    And every word that I could breathe would find you more inclined to leave, but I tried.
    And knowing what I've done to you, with every thought you suffer through
    My heart as black as evil can.
    And everything I could have been, erased by what I wanted then.
    I couldn't think of a lesser man.
     
    Oh, the delicate ways that I deepened our graves; My apology pales.
    Oh, the pain in your eyes! My regrets have never known such sorrow!
    Oh, the shame that you hide! Resolutions are the same tomorrow.
     
    So now I reap what I have sewn, and any rapture I had shown has bled dry.
    And I walked the streets alone, accepting pain I'd never known, as you died.
    Then I hurt myself to see it too, to feel the knife I put in you;
    My heart as broken as my ways.
    I never should've let it pass! This fall was never meant to last!
    The reason's gone, the damage stays.
     
    Wow. That's so deep, and so close to home, I can't help but love it.
     
    5. Thorns (Storm The Gates Of Hell): Most deffinately one of my favorites, this song is sung slowly, leaving it's meaning in plain view for every listener to hear. I love singing along to this song, and my favorite lyric is "Sister, don't you sleep through your own eulogy. Don't sever what you are for what you couldn't be." Think about that. What is a eulogy? it's what a pastor, priest, or perhaps close friend or relative says about the person you were at your funeral. It provokes the thought of what your eulogist will say at your funeral. A eulogy contains all the high points, the good memories, and the positive aspects of one's lifetime. The times in one's life that positively affected the speaker, and perhaps the audience. Are you going to "sleep through your own eulogy" or are you going to make something of yourself and your faith that will reverberate through the lives of the people around you? "Don't sever what you are for what you couldn't be." Don't try and be something your not, because the people who truely care about you care about the real you, not the person you wish you were.
     
    Well, there you have it. It was extremely difficult to choose a mere five DH songs that hold special meaning to me, and for the record, this post took me three days to complete. Every one of their songs is absolutly amazing, both in sound and in meaning, and I highly recommend all of their work to anyone looking to mosh for Jesus. Perhaps later I'll post a "top ten" list of my favorite Christian songs of all time. It'll be a difficult ten, but I think any readers I may have might get to know me better through it. Until then, thanks for reading.

Sunday, 04 October 2009

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    No Sir, Nihilism Is Not Practical
    By Showbread
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    A Beautiful Reminder

    Matthias Replaces Judas
    by Showbread
     
    it is so that my transgressions have born a withered fruit,
    the sun has scorched the rising plans;
    alas they have no root, the bleached bones of animals bound by leather strips,
    dance through the air with laughter as i wield this wicked whip,
    as you did warn me carpenter, this world has weakened my heart,
    so easily i disparage, self-seeking the work of my art,
    and there you have come to me at the moment i bathe in my sorrow,
    so in love with myself, sought after avoiding tomorrow,
    where do you find the love to offer he who betrays you?
    and offer to wash my feet as i offer to disobey you,
    your beauty does bereave me, and how my words do fail,
    so faithfully and dutifully i award you with betrayal,
    the weak and the down trodden fall on broken legs,
    as i walk past a smile i cast, fervor in my stead,
    but my bones like plastic, do buckle backward now,
    i lay in this field by Judas' bowels and anticipate the plow,
    i can not be forgiven; my wages will be paid,
    for those more lovely and admirable is least among the saved,
    and where would i fit Jesus?
    what place is left for me?
    the price of atonement is more than i've found to offer up as my plea,
    Jesus my heart is all i have to give to you, so weak and so unworthy,
    this simply will not do, no alabaster jar, no diamond in the rough,
    for your body that was broken, how can this be enough?
    by me you were abandoned, by me you were betrayed,
    yet in your arms and in your heart forever i have stayed

    Your glory illuminates my life, and no darkness will descend,
    for you have loved me forever, and your love will never end

     
    ©2004 Showbread (website)

Monday, 06 July 2009

  • A time for change.

    This is it. A time for change. When I started keeping track of my finances to the very last penny at the beginning of this year, I learned a few things about myself that were quite humbling. My careless spending habits had remained in the shadows since the day I got my first real job, and now that I have a family to look after, and real bills to pay, these habits are beginning to rear their ugly, consequential heads.
     
    Thanks to my grueling efforts toward figuring out where my money was going, I found out that McDonald's [top] dollar menu wasn't saving me any money at all; I found out that 21% interest and a $2400 limit was a big deal rather than a good deal; I found out that being impatient is the last thing you want to be when buying a used car. I found out a lot of things. But I found out too late. Far too late.
     
    The consequences of my impatience, my lack of personal finance skills, and my impulsive, impatient spending have caught up to me, and at this point there's nothing I can do but weather the storm. Of course, being laid off, and supporting a family of five on a single, hourly income have added fuel to the fire, but here I sit, hundreds of dollars overdrawn, thousands of dollars in debt, and with no way out this side of a miracle. But do I deserve a miracle?
     
    God has always provided for my needs, financially. Even in my current situation, and at my current job, my bills are paid. I have every penny accounted for, bills, income, and unnecessary spending, from February of this year up until Decebmer 31st of this year, and without the unnecessary spending, my bank account will not go below zero. It has been my impatient, and impulsive financial decision making thus far that has gotten me here, and it has been a sincerely humbling experience to actually see the numbers on my computer screen.
     
    I'm not angry at God, or at anyone who may have influenced my behavior. I am angry at myself. Why am I doing this? Why, even when I know I can't afford it, do I still pull up to the drive thru? What could possibly be slipping my mind when I swipe my credit card for things that will not provide anything besides instant, short-lived gratification? I pray every day that I will come to understand the horrors I am putting myself through when I do such things before I do them. I would greatly appreciate some prayer support. I've been going it alone all along, and this is where my lust for sole control has gotten me.
     
    God bless you,
     
    ~Josh

Sunday, 25 January 2009

  • A Good Set of Miracles

    I’m sure by now you all know the deal. My hours have been cut to 32 per week, and I’m being laid off. Being that my current financial situation is beyond dismal, and finding a job in this economy is virtually impossible, I begged God for a miracle. And God delivered! But I didn’t just get one miracle, I got several.

    Miracle #1: The severance I’m getting is two weeks for every year I’ve been employed. I’ve been working at my current job for almost four years now, but I quit in January of 2007 to go to school. I went for one semester, and then returned to the same job where I’ve been working ever since. It was because of this that I should only be getting severance for one year, but since I was only gone for a few months, I’m still in “the system” as having started in August of 2005!

    Miracle #2: A few weeks ago, my shift lead called me up and asked that I call my supervisor about an available job. I called him up to find that he had a friend (a local hardware store employee) that was getting rid of some people at his other job at a food manufacturer and was looking for several new warehouse workers. Knowing that I had warehouse and SAP experience, my supervisor recommended me for the job. I applied, I got the job, and now all I had to do was request my severance early.

    Miracle #3: Yesterday I called my HR representative to inquire about receiving my severance early, and found that she had to okay it with a few people before she would know for sure if I could. She said she would call me back tomorrow (which is now today) with an answer. Well, this morning, my supervisor called me to tell me that there was to be a meeting at 2:30. I was totally passed out when he called because this was the first day this week I’ve actually been able to come home from work and sleep rather than having to go fill out paperwork, or take a drug test, or whatever else I had to do before starting my new job, and my phone was on silent so I missed the call, and the meeting. However, when I woke up and saw that I had three missed calls, two text messages, and two new voicemails (the calls and the voicemails being from my supervisor), I gave him a call and found out what the meeting was all about. Apparently they’re going to put those scheduled to be laid off on paid leave (at 40 hours a week, which is more than I’m working now) until their scheduled release date, at which point the severance package will be given.

    What does it all mean? It means that I will be receiving my severance for three years of working time and putting it straight into the bank, getting a new, full time (with benefits) job right away at a decent salary, and for one month I’ll be getting paid for 40 hours a week at my current job and getting paid for 40 hours a week at my new job!!

    I have been praying to no end that I might survive all of this, and God listened. He heard my prayers, and saw my persistence, and met my needs as I requested. I am so happy right now I can’t even think straight! God bless all of you, as he has blessed me, and, again, I can’t thank those who prayed for me enough.

    Miracle #4: My friends on Xanga. You guys really mean a lot to me. Without your help and prayers, I believe none of this would’ve happened. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.

    Can I get an Amen?

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